Setting Intentions
March 2023 Slice of Life challenge
It's dark, really dark, almost pitch black. The darkening shade over the window is pulled down, The curtains are pulled tightly shut. A darkening piece of black fabric covers the perimeter around my door where the light might peak through. All electronics with lights are turned off.
The sound machine screams white noise as its internal fan whirls around. It helps a little to mask any noises that may happen around the house. However, I think my house is made of paper because I can still hear others milling around even though it is late. I hear the clanging of the silverware and dishes making their way from the sink to the dishwasher. I hear trampling feet running up the stairs from the laundry room. I hear the adjacent room door loudly shut. I lay in bed while numerous heavy blankets try to comfort me. My mind races with the day's events. I say a prayer, I repeat a mantra or two. Nothing will lull me off to sleep. I turn a podcast on. I briefly fall asleep only to awake again. I turn another podcast on. I fall asleep but only for another moment. I'm awake again so I try to numb my mind by scrolling on my phone. It's almost 2 AM. I finally set the phone down, I don't know when or how I drifted off to sleep, but the next thing I hear is my alarm waking me up for work in the morning. I hope to fall asleep with ease this evening because I can't do this again. My mind needs to let my body rest.
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3/3/2022 01:16:33 pm
You capture the feelings and frustrations of insomnia so well. The sensory details are so rich here. The image of the house made of paper especially stood out to me. I was awake at 2:11 a.m. and couldn't fall back asleep--so I feel your pain!
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Tom
3/3/2022 04:57:56 pm
These images capture the sleeplessness of a restless brain SO well. By the time the phone scrolling has set in, the whole effort is lost, right!?! We had an earthquake last night that rattled some downstairs dishes here in Santiago, Chile, and I knew I was doomed. A shot of adrenaline at 2am plus a busy schedule for the workday equals insomnia.
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Alex Buda
3/3/2022 05:01:20 pm
This has been the last 3 nights for me. Something is going on. Normally my melatonin gummies help turn my brain off but it's been rough. Hoping for a good night's rest for the both of us tonight.
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Teri Keys
3/3/2022 08:30:32 pm
I don't fight the insomnia anymore. I keep my mind relaxed and sometimes I fall back asleep and sometimes I don't. It's amazing how well I can function with only 4 hours of sleep.
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