Setting Intentions
March 2023 Slice of Life challenge
This week we celebrated both of my girls’ birthdays. Of course each day is all about them. However, no one will know just how much it means to me when I'm wished a happy birth day on the day of my daughters’ births. I know it’s their special day but in a way the day belongs to me too. It’s the day and the days preceding their births when I underwent amazing trauma. And each year for the anniversary of my days of birth I reflect back and it is always so hard. It doesn’t matter how many years go by these days conjure up the same feelings and emotions attached to the events. I know it’s just another day on the calendar but for some reason these anniversaries hit me hard. The frequent flashbacks, depression and anxiety related to these days ended years ago and my daily living every other day of the year is normal. It’s these two birthdays or anniversaries of my days of birthing when I remember a time that was so hard, difficult, emotionally and physically draining and the most turmoil I’ve ever been through. Today I found myself taken aback and honored when several of my friends on Facebook wished me a happy birthing day. One was my doula who knows everything I went through in my first birth. The other few were random friends who don’t even know how much they tugged at my heart and the love that their simple sentiment shined on me today. Being recognized today was what I needed so badly and appreciated more than anyone will ever know.
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ADRIENNE GILLESPIE
3/5/2020 07:48:23 pm
All mom's deserve to be acknowledged on a child's birthday. It seems as though you went through more than most and came out the better person for it.
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I loved this perspective. I can't tell you how many times in the past 5 years I've thought, "You think I'll never know, Mom, but I do. I see all the things I've gone through that my kids will never remember. I don't know every little thing you've done for me, but I do see you." Thanks for sharing your heart!
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trina
3/5/2020 08:58:22 pm
Happy birthday to both of your girls....and happy birthing days to you.
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3/6/2020 07:31:47 pm
I'm so glad your friends acknowledged you, making you feel a special kind of love on these special days.
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